i feel really good and still have absurd amounts of karma to exhaust. the path is much longer than i thought but its upsides are also way higher, and you need to be less far than i thought to get the upsides i thought were at the end

i have no idea whats actually at the end if there even is one but i bet its reallllly good

its like climbing a mountain and you're like wow these views are even better than i expected the summit to be and you look and you're 5% up the mountain

though getting the 5% has taken like a decade so far your mileage may vary

its like climbing a mountain and you're like wow these views are even better than i expected the summit to be and you look up and you're 5% up the mountain

for the most part the karma is self-burning now, unless i'm in a bad state sick or something it's sort of always continuously slowly further letting go throughout every waking moment, but there's still a lot of it to work through

i guess it's like at some point up the mountain a ski lift shows up, but it's also a realllly big mountain so it's not like it's going to be a quick trip

the karma is kinda self-burning now, unless i'm in a bad state like sick or something i can feel it metabolizing throughout each day. but there's so much to get through. like at some point up the mountain a ski lift appears, but it's a big mountain so it wont be a quick trip

@ss_bhav the shift was to all-the-time centerlessness / flow which has stayed since then

@ss_bhav the shift was to all-the-time centerlessness / flow which has stayed since then. but in retrospect there's a looot more to clear out than just the "main controller that blocks flow" etc

@ss_bhav the shift was to all-the-time centerlessness / flow which has stayed. but in retrospect there's a looot more to clear out than just the "main controller that blocks flow" etc. also unwanted behavioral things (anxieties etc) i didn't include in "meditation" but now i do